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Thank you; for being the best version of yourself and never stop trying to be better.
Day by day.
Thank you; for showing me a lot of beautiful things I've never seen with my eyes wide open-before.
Thank you for showing me to have a pure heart when it comes to a friendship. A commitment and honesty.
Thank you; for that tiny little curve at your face trying to smile even when you really mad.
Trying to see the positives in every corner.
Trying to catch my hand even when I push you away.

Thank you for asking what I want to eat, what I want to do, what I want to say.

For giving me options.
For giving me advice.
For giving me opinions.
For showing me love.
For showing me peace.
For showing me patience.
For being you.
And being here.


May Allah give you strength, bless you with so much love and pour you with the brightest light. You can walk to the future with more and more imaan in your heart and braver than you ever be.

May all your courage and hard work payss= off. May your way be ease and soft. InsyAllah, we're soon to be there..

Dear, 11 Januariku.
27 Juli 2015.

This is more than just a phase, Love.

Oh, hello there. 
I write again after a long hiatus like usual. I moved several posts to a draft because I don't feel like sharing it with people. I started to be picky about which part of my random thoughts that I'll be sharing to everyone and which one I'll keep to myself. So yeah...life was being a joyful, scary, a lot of surprises and ups and downs lately. I was about to share some of it here but yeah I always end up saving it as a draft and never post it. 

Oh well, I know these all are just a nonsense.

Perjalanan menemukan jati diri, seperti berjalan dalam sebuah labirin tanpa akhir. Melelahkan ketika menemui sudut-sudut buntu dan gelap, tapi bisa jadi sangat menyenangkan dan menantang. Mungkin, perjalanan ini adalah perjalanan tanpa henti, sepanjang hayat. Kamu akan terus berjalan, menemukan, ditemukan, mendapatkan bahkan kehilangan. Anggap saja jati dirimu itu memang sesuatu yang harus kau cari seumur hidup karena dengan begitu kau tidak akan pernah berhenti. Aku pernah jatuh, aku pernah tinggi...tapi pada akhirnya aku hanya akan berada di fase dimana semua datar dan hidup terus berjalan.

Oh my darling trust me, these too shall pass..but this is more than just a phase. 

 Tetap percaya, jiwa yang terus mencari akn terus ditemukan olehNya.

Yogyakarta, 4 Mei 2016

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I think the universe is on my side
Heaven and Earth have finally aligned
Days are good and that's they way it should be

You sprinkle star dust on my pillow case
It's like a moon beam brushed across my face
Nights are good and that's the way it should be

You make me sing ooh la la laa
You make a girl go ooh ooh
I'm in love, love

Did you see that shooting star tonight?
Were you dazzled by the same constellation?
Did you and Jupiter conspire to get me?
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
'Cause now I'm shining bright, so bright
Bright, so bright

And I see colors in a different way
You make what doesn't matter fade to grey
Life is good and that's the way it should be

You make me sing ooh la la laa
You make a girl go ooh ooh
I'm in love, love

Did you see that shooting star tonight?
Were you dazzled by the same constellation?
Did you and Jupiter conspire to get me?
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
'Cause now I'm shining bright (ooh) so bright
And I get lost in your eyes

Did you see that shooting star tonight?
Were you dazzled by the same constellation?
Did you and Jupiter conspire to get me?
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
'Cause now I'm shining bright, so bright
Bright, so bright
Bright, so bright
And I get lost in your eyes tonight

11 Januari

Selamat pagi, blog yang mungkin tidak pernah dikunjungi.
Selamat pagi, aku yang hanya bisa menulis ketika hati ini gelisah.

Selamat pagi seseorang yang selalu menjadi inspirasi dalam tulisan-tulisan kecil ku disini, pun di blog pribadi yang lain.

Hey...
Jaga kesehatan dan selalu bahagia ya
Jalan kamu sangat panjang
Masa depan kamu aku lihat gemilang

Daftar mimpi sudah kita coret satu persatu,
membanggakan ya bisa berjuang bersama orang yang kita cintai
Seseorang yang energi baik nya tak pernah habis meskipun setiap hari aku serap

Hey...
11 januariku

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Hello, blog world :-)
It's been sooooooooooooo long since my last post, uh? Still tryin' to catch a breath during my hectic life. Too many things to do yet so little time to manage. I am not saying I am so busy but yeah~
Still trying to re-arrange these story line I wanted to tell you recently. So much wonderful things 2014! Aaah! It looks like I am going to tell you all of this year's big story only in a post. We'll see~ Please wait, y'all!

xoxo

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Just like the butterfly, you too will awaken in your own time. Your very own time.

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Kita semua bergerak, sebagian berjalan -sebagian lagi berlari, sebagian lainnya merangkak. Mengikuti waktu berdetak, berdenting. Beban di bahu masing-masing, mata yang bening memancarkan harap, juga cemas. Rasa takut membuatmu berkeringat dan gemetar. Sayang, aku bilang itu wajar. Baik..aku mengaku aku hanya menghibur diriku sendiri dengan mengatakan hal itu wajar. Tapi memang ketakutan itu wajar kan?

Di lain waktu semangat dan asa menggebu-gebu membuatmu memasang lengkung pelangi terindah diwajahmu kemudian tanpa lelah berpacu dengan jarum jam menghabiskan hari. Sayang, itulah kamu. Kamu adalah sekumpulan emosi. Naik, turun. Sekumpulan harap, doa dan impian. Kamu adalah doa yang kau panjatkan. Kamu bukanlah apa yang didefinisikan oleh cermin, oleh timbangan, oleh alat ukur apapu. Bukan. Kamu adalah hatimu. Kamu adalah perjuanganmu. Kamu adalah keputusan-keputusanmu. Kamu adalah ketakutan dan rasa sedihmu. Bahagia dan nelangsa. Gelak, senyum dan tawa. Kamu adalah cahaya. Ya..kamu menerangi impian-impianmu. Layaknya taman yang kau rawat setiap hari. Mimpi itu warnamu. Kamu adalah pelangi. Merah-jingga-kuning-hijau-biru-ungu.

Apapun itu. Aku mohon kau percaya kamu adalah keindahan sempurna.

Jadi, soal berjalan: berjalanlah jika kau ingin berjalan, berlari jika kau hendak berlari, merangkaklah jika kau lelah. Yang paling penting teruslah bergerak. Jangan menyerah sayang. Definisikan bahagiamu, kemudian berbagilah.

Sayang, soal berharap: teruslah berharap, jangan berhenti. Harapan itu membuatmu hidup. Setidaknya ia membuatmu bertahan. 

Tak ada kesimpulan dalam tulisanku kali ini sayang (layaknya tulisan-tulisanku sebelum ini), tapi sayang kuharap harapan itu masih menyala didadamu. Ketakutan tak akan membuatmu kerdil, ketakutan itu bagian dari dirimu. Kuharap kau punya keberanian untuk menerima ketakutanmu. Tersenyumlah, esok hari baru, Pelangiku. :)

Unplanned (?)

I have no idea what to write. Seems like my blog is going to be an old book and boring at one time. I want to write inspirational words, excellent story or maybe a strong argument about something. But I ended up writing about unimportant things and just show how bad my writings are.

But, I wouldn't stop...I'll always write no matter if it will creep everyone out and ruin someones's day, I'll keep writing. No matter how bad my writings are. But still, deep down inside I hope to write something that will inspire someone. I hope you have a good day, a really good one. Cheer up!